Tuesday, April 15, 2008

insecurity, judgment, and how it affects all of us.

I watched a video this morning on YouTube on a channel called UnificationNow. It came at the right time for me, to reaffirm my beliefs as far as why anyone would feel the need to lash out at someone they don't know. You know, the kind of libelous assumptions that make the people who put that kind of attitude out there just plain ugly, no matter what their external appearance may be. It's pretty sad, actually. When people on the internet try and put me down, I know that their insecurities, fears, and other negative factors in their lives are what brings it about. It's not easy to look past the anger of a verbal assault on you, especially when it's coming from someone you don't know, and will probably never meet. They take one moment that you've decided to share with the world, begin to build an idea based on pure speculation of who you are, and then try and play karma police on you, or just flat out insult you. No logic involved whatsoever. No consideration of their victim's past experiences, lifestyle, morals, or anything. An instant in time, a flash of emotion, a rash of assumptions, a lashing out, and then MAYBE (but doubtful) guilt upon realizing that they just regressed any progress towards peace that humanity as a whole has been struggling for. For most people, it's impossible to not fight back. Or get revenge. For me, I prefer to either set the record straight in a mature manner (unless of course, I've had no coffee... I won't make the mistake of checking comments before I've had at least a full cup again!) or just follow the read-ignore-block-delete method. I understand that these people are just sheeple, they don't know any better, and it is a coping mechanism - it makes them feel better to put someone else down. It's sad, but it's true, and you can't change them. Their life experiences have brought them there, and all you can hope for is that someday the karma police will come knocking on their door to teach them a lesson. Because really, it's just like any drug - they feel better about themselves for the moment, but then they've got to go find someone else to put down if the drama doesn't unfold, or if it gets boring to them. Or, if they start to realize that they're being pathetic. Then the defenses really come out.
Let's face it, we've all been programmed to judge others based on all kinds of criteria. Hey, I've done it. I don't bother anymore because I've come to that understanding that people are gonna do what they want to do. I worry about myself before I worry about what other people are doing that I may not agree with. I can accept and understand the roots of any problem, and fighting against it is just a tremendous waste of energy. Understanding it, accepting it, and moving along is what works best for me. I don't wish to deal with anyone that has some kind of megalomaniacal complex, thinking they are better than everyone else. We're all connected, we need to accept that. We need to accept one another. We have to agree to disagree - but we also need to make an effort to gain an understanding of all the criteria that could be involved in a situation before rising to slander someone. And besides, is slandering anyone *really* necessary? Some things shouldn't be forgiven, but those things are up to you and your personal morals, I guess.

I think the thing that has been bothering me most is how judgment is slung at people for their appearance. Some aspects of human appearance can be helped, some can't. But who the fuck is anyone to judge? The real value of a person should absolutely not ever be dictated by their external appearance. I don't care if you're this race, that race, heavy, skinny, blue hair, blonde hair, long nails, short nails, tattooed or not.... it doesn't fucking matter! Any individual's TRUE worth is on the inside. Their understanding, compassion, spirit, personality, abilities... There should be no other way, but sadly, many people in this world are shallow and empty. They got that way being brainwashed by the media and being affected by other people who have also been brainwashed by the media. You can't deny it, as scary and paranoid as the word "brainwashed" sounds, have a seat and think very hard about how television, magazines, the news, and the internet affect your views on the world and how they affect the views of cultures around the world. You can't afford not to if you want to start to lead a happy and fulfilling life. If you don't want to live a happy and fulfilling life, well, that's on you. Keep me and the people I love out of it and go hang out in your dark corner alone, hating everything if that's really what you want. Don't think I don't know what it's like to be filled with hate, because I have been there. But I realized it doesn't solve anything and it doesn't make me feel anything but more hate. Hate breeds hate, love breeds love. Figure out which side you want to be on, and learn from it. Just because you've been shit on doesn't mean the world is your toilet.
I can't rant about this anymore. I think I could write a book about this.

If you're reading this, forget the bullshit. You are beautiful. I love you.

Be excellent to each other, and party on, dudes.

Green Day- "Reject"
Who the hell are you to tell me,
What I am and what's my master plan?
What makes you think that it includes you?
Self-righteous wealth?
Stop flattering yourself.

So when the smoke clears here I am,
Your reject all-American,
Sucking up to your social sect,
Making you a nervous wreck,
To hell and back and hell again I've gone,
You're not my type.
Not my type.

What's the difference between you and me?
I do what I want, and you do what you're told,
So listen up shut the hell up.
It's no big deal.
And I'll see you in hell.

So when the smoke clears here I am,
Your reject all-American,
Sucking up to your social sect,
Making you a nervous wreck,
To hell and back and hell again I've gone,
You're not my type,
Not my type,
Not my type,
Your not my type.

So when the smoke clears here I am,
Your reject all-American.
Falling from grace, right on my face,
To hell and back and hell again I've gone.

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